The Falling of a Feather

The most extraordinary thing about this understanding is that nothing needs to perish inside you in order to access your essential being. Not a supposed self that might be getting in the way of your realisation. Not some kind of entity that you painstakingly have to dismantle before you can access the truth of your being. There is nothing to dismantle. Not a single little thing. That apparent, undesirable self is made of the fully formed self that is yet to be revealed. So don’t be fooled. Don’t even be interested in that limited self that you have bought into. There is no such self. Just a few random thoughts hanging around, and being amused by the trick they have played on you. Don’t give that self even a second glance. What kind of spiritual seeker would you be, wasting your precious time and energy on a self that has not even the beginning of a reality? Don’t get involved with any single idea about yourself.

So don’t fiddle with yourself, get busy suppressing, controlling, practicing, re-ordering. No toughness is required. No crime needed here, and not a bit of violence necessary. Only the noticing that the self you imagined yourself to be is not here. Believe me, there is an awful amount of effort that you can spare yourself. The path is already all cleared. Your true nature is in plain view just as you are. See that what you are looking for is no more than the quiet and gentle falling of a feather of awareness on your experience as it presents itself. Nothing more. A non-happening. The letting go of an idea. So be vigilant. Keep your heart open. See how wide your vision is already. Get accustomed to the light of simply being. You may need time to make it your default experience. But don’t forget that non-violence always prevails with God’s grace. But could you expect any less coming from such a loving being?

To get to the truth of your being may not require much doing on your part. It may only be a matter of gentle focus, a relaxation of your vision, just a quiet abandoning without even your noticing — the noticing part of it would have ruined it all. Or you may only have to gaze wide-eyed at anything, to trust that inner seeing of yours with only the smallest of confidence, and there it is, here, now, just as you are, and not even in disguise — a whole castle of awareness spread as your self. Nothing to dismantle. And no dismantler in capacity to dismantle anything. Just that very being which you are and always have been. That very awareness with which you have been awaring all this time. That is you, waiting only for your gentle noticing. There is no impediment to your true self. And mind you, any effort at suppressing an entity that is not here in the first place is enough to ridicule you, and keep you far away from that which you already are.

You might say: “Yes, but to come up with that level of simplicity and ease, one has to have endured long practices. That is only good for the ones already steeped in effort. Relaxing is easier once you are familiar with the top of the mountain.” Well, that could only be true if there was something to reach or attain. Somewhere to arrive at. But there isn’t. There is no destination other than your self just as it is now. You have already arrived. Already visited the appartement without your noticing. You are the happy guest that has moved in before even being invited to. No solicitor needed but yourself. The thought of it being a long and arduous journey, with a destination so remote as to be not even something to envisage, that alone would put off even the boldest of truth seekers. Revise your judgement. You are already at the top of the mountain you wish to climb.

And quite frankly, where would it be, that gorgeous, inaccessible self, if it wasn’t here just as we are? Where could it be? Have we ever been anywhere but where we always have been, in here, in ourself, experiencing what we experience, being what we are? Have we ever moved away from that, to visit another kind of conscience, another being than our very own being? So the fact that we have this supreme being just curled up in and as our very being, in plain view, and already achieved, should come to us as no surprise at all. So just look carefully. A little repeated attention may suffice. Nothing like an inquisitive stare though. Remember. Just the falling of a feather. The gentle tip of a feather.